I had shared with my Primary Care Physician, Dr. B, the haunts of this cancer journey.
I am haunted that the Herceptin drug may not work as effectively with my specific cancer scores / numbers.
I am haunted that my oncologist stated he would know that everything worked if the cancer does not return. For those of you who know me and how I can stay deep in my head with statistics, you know I want something more substantiated.
I want to ensure I do all I can that I never walk this journey again. Mostly, I never want Richard to walk this journey again. The hardest part of this journey has been watching him put his life on hold to save my life.
Here is the quote Dr. B shared:
“Nobody is stronger, nobody is weaker than someone who came back. There is nothing you can do to such a person because whatever you could do is less than what has already been done to him. We have already paid the price.” Elie Wiesel
I found much comfort in this quote. It provided me a great re-frame. For the last few weeks I have been focused on getting back to normal. There is no getting back to anything. There is only moving forward and finding our new normal.
If you do not know the life and work of Elie Weisel, here is brief information from Internet referecnes: Elie Wiesel was born in 1928 in the town of Sighet, now part of Romania. During World War II, he, with his family and other Jews from the area, were deported to the German concentration and extermination camps, where his parents and little sister perished. Wiesel and his two older sisters survived. Liberated from Buchenwald in 1945 by advancing Allied troops, he was taken to Paris where he studied at the Sorbonne and worked as a journalist. Wiesel made his home in New York City, becoming a United States citizen. He died July 2, 2016.
Leaders … how are you moving forward, making mission, and improving your people and organization? If you are doing what you’ve done in the past you are status quo. Move forward and do better each day.